The year of 21st's!!! Wow how exciting it has been and still is. Had the most amazing night at Jo's 21st last night...and ever since I've been thinking. Ahh Des, why you have to have such a busy brain...gosh. One's 21st birthday is one of the only nights in ones entire life where YOU are honoured and praised for the person you are in a way that you might not ever experience again (especially when it is done in the OT way). I mean, not even one's wedding is just about you, it's about you and your husband as a couple. So there is something special about 21st's.
I remember having somewhat mixed feelings on the night of my 21st party...A night that is right up there on the list of the best nights of my life. Feelings like absolute bliss, awe, natural high, appreciation, joy, being loved... but then I also felt so undeserving, i couldn't help but think what have I done to deserve such amazing words spoken about me, i remember sitting and wishing that i could just single out every person there, because i am only who i am because of the people God have surrounded me. And ofcourse there was a sadness for not being able to share that night with my dad like i always dreamed of...however the joy of having him there was greater.
I learnt a little lesson last night...because even being way nervous before the time i felt so much joy in being able to honour Jo and doing a speech about her. However, after my little thinking spree i realised even though i know she felt blessed, i was actually the one being honoured by being asked to do a speech. See there is something amazing about having people praise you at your own 21st...but there is something more special to being acknowledged as someone worthy of doing a speech. I was so blessed by Jo's speech at my 21st, but it was even more amazing to honour her in front of all her friends and family.
And after all of that I just saw a glimpse of Jesus...and in my mind i see Him as not being the one on the receiving end of the speeches, but rather being the one to deliver the speech. And i realised that i want to live my life more and more with my focus set on others. Yes, it is always nice to be praised for who you are...but i think we should learn to live our lives not seeking praise but rather giving it. I will cherish my 21st and the feelings i felt so that i can remember to praise others and know what feeling it might evoke in them.
Father I pray that you will help me to be always more and more selfless. To never seek gaining ground just for myself but to rather push forward those in front of me and pull up those who lag behind so that they may be encouraged and motivated. Father i ask that you will sharpen my senses more and more so that i may identify those who need to be encouraged and motivated. Help me to take my focus off the one and put it on the many as i know Jesus did. Thank you for blessing me endlessly Father and thank you for providing the necessary praise and encouragement when i need it too...help me to spread Your love to the nations.
I remember having somewhat mixed feelings on the night of my 21st party...A night that is right up there on the list of the best nights of my life. Feelings like absolute bliss, awe, natural high, appreciation, joy, being loved... but then I also felt so undeserving, i couldn't help but think what have I done to deserve such amazing words spoken about me, i remember sitting and wishing that i could just single out every person there, because i am only who i am because of the people God have surrounded me. And ofcourse there was a sadness for not being able to share that night with my dad like i always dreamed of...however the joy of having him there was greater.
I learnt a little lesson last night...because even being way nervous before the time i felt so much joy in being able to honour Jo and doing a speech about her. However, after my little thinking spree i realised even though i know she felt blessed, i was actually the one being honoured by being asked to do a speech. See there is something amazing about having people praise you at your own 21st...but there is something more special to being acknowledged as someone worthy of doing a speech. I was so blessed by Jo's speech at my 21st, but it was even more amazing to honour her in front of all her friends and family.
And after all of that I just saw a glimpse of Jesus...and in my mind i see Him as not being the one on the receiving end of the speeches, but rather being the one to deliver the speech. And i realised that i want to live my life more and more with my focus set on others. Yes, it is always nice to be praised for who you are...but i think we should learn to live our lives not seeking praise but rather giving it. I will cherish my 21st and the feelings i felt so that i can remember to praise others and know what feeling it might evoke in them.
Father I pray that you will help me to be always more and more selfless. To never seek gaining ground just for myself but to rather push forward those in front of me and pull up those who lag behind so that they may be encouraged and motivated. Father i ask that you will sharpen my senses more and more so that i may identify those who need to be encouraged and motivated. Help me to take my focus off the one and put it on the many as i know Jesus did. Thank you for blessing me endlessly Father and thank you for providing the necessary praise and encouragement when i need it too...help me to spread Your love to the nations.
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