Day 1

Day 1 has come...it is almost impossible to believe. How all of this started about 10months ago and now it's right here. Today was the first day of moving out of being an orphan and opening myself to become part of the FF family. I can honestly say I was so nervous. It's funny, it's not like I haven't been there before...but moving from being a visitor to having to intergrate into the family...it's absolutely daunting...at least for me.

However God is good. I was feeling so nervous in the morning...for absolutely no reason :-( But the feeling soon disappeared and was overcome by an intense feeling of joy that I am doing the right thing. Marlize's ring reminded me of CC while standing there during worship...It was amazing as I realised we weren't alone or apart, we just weren't in the same place. We were all worshipping at more or less the same time...I stood there imagining how all the churches IN THE WORLD singing together at the same time must sound to God in heaven or while He is standing there in the midst of ALL of us. What a wonderful BEAUTIFUL thought! I realised that my family is increasing and even though I won't see them at CC so often we are all together. I decided that every time I look at the ring I would pray for CC and raise them to God. In that way I am still able to do something for them.

Thank you Lord for all You are, thank you for always providing. Lord You are so amazing!

Weeskind

Wow, ek kan nie glo die tyd het gekom nie. Ek voel senuweeagtig tot diep binne in my maag vir dit wat voorlê. Gisteraand was my laatse community, my offisiële laaste enige iets permanent by CC. En selfs al weet ek dat ek vir altyd deel sal wees van daai familie...kan ek nie help maar om hiedie uiterse gevoel van leegte te ervaar nie. Dis moeilik, want aan die eenkant los jy die familie wie jy jou hele lewe al ken, mense voor wie jy groot geword het, wat al jou goeie en slegte haarstyl dae saam met jou ervaar het...en aan die ander kant lê daar hierdie groot oop stuk van niks, nog geen familie nie, maar ook 'n area met soveel moontlik hede. Ek voel soos 'n weeskind. En dan natuurlik doen jou familie al hiedrie oulike goed om 'baai' te sê...ek was blown away. En vir 'n sekonde wonder mens of dit alles die moeite werd gaan wees...of mens regtig iets so great moet agterlos en die groot sprong in die black hole in moet vat. Ek het vir 'n oomblik daar gesit en dink ek wil nie...maar ek moet, ek moet gehoorsaam wees. Dis tyd om uit die comfort zone te kom en myself te vind en te groei.

Dis scary, ek het nie 'n beter woord daarvoor nie! Ek troos my daarin dat die Here weet wat die plan is! Here help my!