It's been a while...

Well, more than a year has passed since i last dared to write...shocking really...but hey, that's fine too.

Right now i'm sitting here, reading all my old posts and absolutely bubbling over from the joy in my heart because God is so faithful. He has heard and answered my every cry. I asked for joy in 2008 and boy what a year it was. Filled with so much joy and fun and good times that made for good memories. I asked for more of Him and he provided...not to mention what has been happening in 2009! Dad you are so amazing, i love you Jesus. Help me to believe that you love me more and more.

2008 ofcourse had its challenges...but overall it was a peaceful year. It was filled with excitement of where to in 2009 - but i already knew God had only one place in mind for me...so the elimination process wasn't that big a concern for me. I had no attachment...so it helped that i could say wherever really works for my. But again God was amazing and sent me where He told me from the beginning...Shongwe, Mpumalanga.

Which brings me to 2009. I could tell you all about 2008 but let me tell you it is not a match against the four months that i have spent in 2009. Yes, ofcourse i miss the familiarities of my CT life, my awesome friends, my family, my moms cooking etc - but i am happy to report that life outside of the comfort zone of CT has served me well and i couldn't be happier with my placement. Shongwe is in the bush...thank you dad for the beauty of this place. In some ways i feel like i am in paradise. I mean yes there are many challenges in the bush, the hospital is in a shocking state really and one has to guard your mind from getting discouraged. But the area is incredible and God has surrounded me with the most incredible people that make all of this SO worth while. SO much so that i could see myself staying on next year perhaps. Who knows.

And more than anything, God has revealed himself to me in this year like nothing i have experienced before. His love, his grace, his power. I have seen miracles...people hearing, lame walking, pain disapearing and i have seen Gods power work through me. Praise you God for using me. How unworthy i am and yet you love me and use me. Dad i cant even begin to thank you for your faithfulness. You have catered for my every need this year, for my every prayer and every desire. Thank you spirit for filling me, revealing your entity to me and for comforting me when i need comfort. Thank you God for your protection over my life. Jesus thank you for your blood, for what you did for ME, for accepting me into the family of heaven and for using your power through me. Fathher i pray for more. More of you. I am hungry for you Jesus. Use me. Mould me. Make me new. I want to be like you Jesus. I die to you, come live through me!

It is virtually impossible for me to write down what is on my heart, to find the words for the awesomeness.

Thank you dad for giving me the stregth to deflect the arrows from the enemy. Jesus this week was tough, it was hard to me so dehumanised by that doctor. To be touched in such a rude manner. But Jesus thank you for the grace you pour out on me, for the strenght you gave me to deal with the situation and for the comfort you sent me through Carol. Bless her father, abundantly.

Jesus i think you are awesome and i am realising it more and more as this year goes on. I love you God.